A Day in the Life of a Grieving Mother

I woke up this morning and sat up on my bed, legs dangling towards the floor.  The heaviness of my eyes was overwhelming. I was exhausted, yet weirdly refreshed and thankful to find that the stinging of my bloodshot eyes had subsided after a few hours sleep. My mind didn’t waste any time reminding me… Read More

Wishes and Would Have’s For My Daughter On Her Birthday In Heaven

I let out a big sigh and pulled the covers over my head, just wishing they would go back to sleep.  You see it was 6:10 AM, no school or work and I was exhausted.  Not to mention, I’m not a fan of being woke up in the early morning.  Nothing makes one smile more… Read More

Finding 40-What Grief Has Taught Me Over The Years

Well here it is. It came rolling in with a bang! (Hardly! Unless you consider scrubbing dirty dishes and doing piles of laundry long into the night!) Somehow I thought it would be different. In my 20’s, I always envisioned by life at 40, happy, career driven with a wonderful family and not a care… Read More

11 Things I Would Have Done Differently If I Had Known It Would Be The Last……..

My girl. Today is your 13th birthday. I can’t believe you would be a teenager. It’s hard to fathom that I am the mom to a 13-year-old. Where did the years go? To be able to celebrate with you, would be my first wish. To see your adorable smile, your mischievous glances and determined mindset,… Read More

When A Turkey Makes You Smile

Lately, I’ve been void of words, thus the absence of writing. My motivation declined as my scattered thoughts took root, all-consuming and coaxing me into replaying the memories from the “good old days,” over and over in my mind. You know the ones when you were a younger you, life was fabulous, your career was… Read More

Birthday Blues-The Challenge of Celebrating While Grieving

I hurried to get the kids to bed as it had been an exhausting day. You know the kind where every second it seems some little critter is tugging at your sleeve, yelling, screaming, and saying “Mom, he hit me, she won’t move her leg, he took my toy, and he won’t share.” ALL DAY!!… Read More