Wishes and Would Have’s For My Daughter On Her Birthday In Heaven

I let out a big sigh and pulled the covers over my head, just wishing they would go back to sleep.  You see it was 6:10 AM, no school or work and I was exhausted.  Not to mention, I’m not a fan of being woke up in the early morning.  Nothing makes one smile more… Read More

Thanksgiving Blessings-Reflections From A Mom Who Lost, Yet Won

It was November 27, 2002 and the clock had just turned past midnight. After a rigorous 24 hours of labor and nearly missing an emergency C-section, early this Wednesday morning my beautiful daughter Lydia Marie was born, weighing 8lbs 2 oz. and covered in a full head of dark hair.  Heavily medicated and exhausted, I couldn’t believe… Read More

Inconsistent and Odd- The Spacing Of My Children and the Mention of the Dreaded Gap

Last week it was school conferences for my boys. Conferences are always a joy to go to, presenting a nice opportunity to get that individual time to chat with the teacher about your child. It always gives me some surprise insights into the wild little personalities of my kids. While at my oldest son’s fifth… Read More

Spirit Filled Easter

Sharing my post from last year…Love this time of year… With Easter right around the corner, I can’t help but think of my last Easter with Lydia. We had always enjoyed the sunrise service in the middle of the desert.   There’s nothing quite like getting up at 4 AM, throwing the kids in the car,… Read More

Hope For Spring and Introduction to The Compassionate Courier

I hope you have all been well and sorry for the lack of communication recently. I haven’t had much spare time it seems. My little three-year old has literally kept me cleaning up his disastrous behavior every time I turn around! The terrible twos morphed into the horrific threes. He takes the cake out of… Read More

Secondary Loss and Steak Sauce

We were on a boat and I could see the shore in the distance. A few old friends, some of Lydia’s old friends and me. No clue what we were doing there but it was nice to see everyone. Suddenly, the boat began taking on water and would soon succumb to the power of the… Read More